It's my LIFE! xD

New Blog @ Way2Blog

2008-06-13T12:53:00.002+08:00

Blogger has problem with RSS and design (it modifies my codes) as mentioned earlier, and Wordpress.com does not allows people to edit or modify any codes of the themes to customise them, also mentioned earlier.

My solution is to these is to create a new blog in a whole new domain, and thanks to Mr Daryl Goh's help, I've finally get things done. :D

Here is my new blog, and the final final TRULY FINAL url: http://kongwenbin.way2blog.net/

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Whoever see these links, please kindly update your "Favorites" and "Bookmarks" for your browser :D

And for those who have linked my blog or what de, please update your links! Thank you very much!!! xD

way2blog.net migration

2008-06-12T15:06:00.001+08:00

I will be migrating my blog again soon, due to the fact that wordpress.com does not allow us to edit HTML and stuffs to customise our blog ourselves.

What the point of having a personal blog when you can’t even have it your way, your style? :p

I am going to migrate my blog to way2blog.net domain, thanks to Daryl’s help! A billion thanks to him (clap clap)

Currently the blog is still under development, am still figuring how to actually use it. I need the rights to edit it; well, will ask Daryl to help me :p

he’s the computer god afterall~ x))

I will update my final blog url soon when it's up! thanks for visiting! and stay tune ;p

Migrated to Wordpress

2008-06-11T01:06:00.003+08:00

I've migrated to Wordpress due to the fact that Blogger not only screws up my codings for my page design, it doesn't update my RSS feed also, which in some ways made me really annoyed and irritated.

Here is my new link: http://kongwenbin.wordpress.com/

Please update your 'favorites' and pay my blog a visit! x)

Bug in Blogger's RSS feed?

2008-06-10T09:06:00.003+08:00

I find a bug in blogger's rss feed! I'll explain why.

Yesterday morning I updated my blog at around 12:51 noon. I updated my blog at ping.sg and I waited and waited..

Man, it did not update! At first I thought the problem lies on ping.sg, as a kind soul there pointed out to me that ping.sg was down for a while just now, thus didn't update my blog (probably due to the timing)

Well, I reposted that entry with a different title at around 2:05 pm, but again, it did not update.

I tried to troubleshoot the problem, and I actually found out that Blogger did not update my blog's RSS!!!

If you're viewing my blog, scroll all the way down (yes, all the way DOWN) to the bottom - did you see a horizontal container looks something like this:

It's my LIFE! xD
Rohan Online
What's wrong with blogger?
Men are hard to please [joke]
New arrangement of Japanese class [words from my heart]
Distributing mails in army [JOKE]

Note that I just copy and paste them from my own blog on 10th June 2008 lols.

Okay, My point it, try CLICKING on the first title (Rohan Online)

Did you get a page not found error? That's it!

That was the post at 12:51 noon! I DELETED that post yesterday! And I update my blog at 2:05 pm! It did not update!

And today's post - I don't know whether Blogger is going to update it or not, I'd just say I'm upset that it did not update my rss feed in my post.

If I'm wrong, and something need to be done to get my rss feed accurately, and if anyone knows how, please let me know. Thanks!

Rohan Online (new mmorpg)

2008-06-09T14:05:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, I started playing Rohan Online, due to the fact that it's a newly launched MMORPG with servers in USA, TAIWAN, JAPAN and KOREA.

I find the game quite nice, it's obviously a combination of World of Warcraft (WoW) and Silkroad Online; just like what other gamers has commented/debated to be so.

Basically, they have good sides and bad sides people, Dhan the assasin class and Dekan the dragon fighters on the bad side, well i'm not sure about Dark Elfs the mage due to the fact that I don't think they can toggle their mode to killer (kills other players and receive rewards instead of penalty)

And the other 3 jobs who are on the good side are Human the knight, Elf the healer, and Half Elf the archer.

Just like other MMORPG, we train our characters in game and raise their level, to achieve the strongest in server/game. Unlike Cabal Online, Rohan online doesn't based too much on quest. Players can actually neglect doing quest and go straight to raise their character's level.

I'm currently a level 14 healer. Seriously, this is the first time in my MMORPG life to use a HEALER. However, in Rohan, each job has 2 basic different build in so called "job advancement, just like WoW.

I going to make my healer raise to be a Templar, which is strong in physical and magical attack, as well as able to heal; instead of being a priest who purely act as a super healer.

And on top of that, I'm working on a Templar build who specialises on SOLO TRAINING but nonethelessly, I still could be a PART-TIME-HEALER but healing alittle when I'm in a training party with Teng Yong, Jing Hong, Ruina, Ruina's brother, James, and see who else are playing Rohan with me. hahas.

Last but not least, I'm in the Ahkma Server (I might spell wrongly, just remember I'm in the "A" server, which is currently the NEWEST server at the moment)

Cheerios!

You can find more information in the following website http://www.playrohan.com/

What's wrong with blogger?

2008-06-08T13:59:00.003+08:00

I am so pissed with blogger!

I spent like 2 hours to design a new skin, but guess what? It's kinda screwed up by blogger! Well I'm not sure. Here goes what happened:

I preview the blogskin I designed, on Mozilla FireFox, Netscape, Opera and Internet Explorer 7.0; All shows a fine result as expected.

But the moment I copy and paste the codes from Adobe Dreamweaver CS3 to Blogger's Edit Template page, the text just flew all over the place. I don't know what happened!

I'm very sure my codes are correct, because I preview it on 4 different browsers locally, and they shows a fine result.

The "text flew all over" error only occurs when I upload the codes to Blogger! Am I right to say that my codes are screwed up by Blogger?!

I didn't backup my previous Blogskin as I thought things went fine, since I could display the pages totally fine in all 4 different browsers. Never expect the same problem to occurs - screwed up by Blogger - AGAIN!

My previous blogskin also has the same problem, but I didn't realise. Last time, it was fine. Until few months ago, I suddenly realise the codes turned "screwed up" when viewed in FireFox browser; which is amazingly weird.

Well, I don't know what to say. Really pissed by blogger. I'm now using a default template and only edit a little to put up my information and the tagboard. It is only for temporary.

Hope someone could explain to me what the hell actually happened to my codes when they're uploaded to Blogger.

Men are hard to please [joke]

2008-06-08T12:23:00.002+08:00

If u TREAT him nicely, he says u are IN LOVE
with him; If u Don't, he says u are PROUD.

If u DRESS Nicely, he says u are trying to
LURE him; If u Don't , he says u are from VILLAGE.

If u ARGUE with him, he says u are STUBBORN ; If u keep QUIET, he says u have no BRAINS.

If u are SMARTER than him, he'll lose FACE; If he's Smarter than u, he is GREAT.

If u don't Love him, he tries to POSSESS u; If u Love him! , he will try to LEAVE u.

If u don't make love with him., he says u don't Love him; If u do!! he says u are CHEAP.

If u tell him your
PROBLEM, he says u are TROUBLESOME; If u don't, he says that u don't TRUST him.

If u SCOLD him, u are like a NANNY to him; If he SCOLDS u, it is because he CARES for u.

If u BREAK your PROMISE, u Cannot be TRUSTED; If he BREAKS his, he is FORCED to do so.

If u SMOKE, u are BAD girl; If he SMOKES, he is GENTLEMAN.

If u do WELL in your exams, he says it's LUCK; If he does WELL, it's BRAINS.

If u HURT him, u are CRUEL; If he HURTS u, u are too SENSITIVE!! & sooo hard to please!!!!!

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I saw the joke up there in a forwarded email; which is damnnnnnnnnnnn long ago (year 2006?) and I still laugh at it. LOL.

Note it's just a joke! x)

New arrangement of Japanese class [words from my heart]

2008-06-07T21:54:00.006+08:00

Well, guess what? I told Wei Kiang and Mui Khim not to be late today. Best not to be late because we're joining a new class - new classmates - new sensei and more critically - a whole new environment.

But I'm late myself! =.="

I overslept! I slept at like 4am last night? I set my alarm clock to ring at 7 am (normally 7.30 am); but I close my eyes for awhile, and when I open my eyes again:

"OMFG ITS 9:10 AM!"

Note that my japanese class starts at 9 am sharp.

I rush to prepare and rush to school. I somehow jog all the way whenever I can - almost totally never walk before. LOL. Except for in the MRT station :X

The class is quite big, as it is the combination of two class. Frankly speaking, in such a big class, it's kind of difficult to study efficiently. But what to do? Since NYP arranged it like this; nothing we could do!

Anyway, the learning environment is totally different, they listen to radio on the main passage instead of ownself read them out. And this and that, meaning - it's a totally different way of teaching by our new sensei, that is, Keiko sensei.

Can't say I don't like her or what, but if you let me choose again, I'd still choose my previous sensei, Mariko sensei.

She have been teaching us since our previous semester - JLOE1, that is, Japanese Language Optional Elective 1. Been almost one and a half semester being taught by her. No matter what, the feeling is still there. Quite upset that she left.

I heard from my classmates saying that Mariko sensei quitted because she is tired of and she doesn't like our attitude.

I thought it was just what they thought, but somehow it turns out that this is mentioned by Keiko sensei at the start of the class - when I wasn't around!

Thus I couldn't really tell whether it's true or not. I can only believe in my own feel; that is, I seriously hope not.

I have been cracking jokes and try to keep the class' study atmosphere light and not having any heavy feel.. so that everyone can learn efficiently and not feel stress.

I hope I'm not the cause of her resignation. I really liked her class, I really like learning japanese language.

Japanese language is an interesting topic to learn. It is complicated yet easy to understand as long as you understand the meaning deep inside. And it's a real pleasure when you master the usage of a certain sentence structure.

I did badly for my first test due to heavy load of school work all being cramped up together, in addition of the fact that I'm currently representing NYP for a competition, where the deadline is on 26th June - the time is short and we got alot to rush.

As a result, I don't really got much time to study for the test or practise anything for japanese - I left school everyday at around 8pm or later..

I actually failed my test paper at 18/40; although my oral expression results of 31/40 helped me to pass my overall ICA1 test, but still, it's quite a disappointment, I have never scored a non A results in japanese since JL1, JL2, JLOE1, all the way until now. And a drop is all the way drop to a fail in main paper..

I must have let Mariko sensei down.

I will not let her down again, I will study hard and make sure I get an overall A in my final results - and that means to get A for role play, ICA2 and everything.. to pull up my failure in ICA1.

I hope I can do it. And last but not least, Mariko sensei, we're all so gonna miss you! We will not let you down!

Although Keiko sensei keep saying that we're slow and hinting to us that we're slowing her class down, we will not quit or give up easily. We'll do you proud ;p

Thanks a lot for teaching us all these time, we appreciate it and the time spent with you have been great! I really enjoyed them.

ほんとに　ありがとう　ございます。

p.s. - thank you very much

Distributing mails in army [JOKE]

2008-06-05T23:29:00.001+08:00

A Sergeant in the army called out his battalion as they stood in line he started giving out the mail. He started, "Private John!"

"Yes Sir!," John answered as he stepped forward.

"Your Mother just had a heart attack. Take your letter and go back in line."

With tears in eyes, Private John went back in line.

"Private Peter!," he called out again."

"Yes sir.," answered the Private.

"Your brother was involved in an accident; he broke his legs and arms and died screaming out in pain like a baby."

Just then a General who was passing by called the Sergeant and told him to be more humane when he is distributing mails to the junior officers.

The next morning he gathered the men as usual. He brought out the first letter, looked at it and did not know what to say because the General was watching this time. He finally said to his men,

"If you know your father is alive move to the right."

As all the men were moving to the right.. He shouted, "Private Kingsley! Move to the left quickly!!!"

So much to do yet so little time!

2008-06-04T22:45:00.004+08:00

Task to be done by this week alone:

JavaJive competiton presentation; japanese language composition; database class test;

Task to be done in the two weeks study break:

4 common test papers to study for; JavaJive final presentation; JavaJive final completed product; development of eCommerce nike website using opensource; development of sports web 2.0 website using AJAX and client side programming; ICT project management project to work on developing a video eCommerce website; creation of a web service which allows tour companies to apply it to generate flight bookings using xml and java; 2 more japanese composition to write; japanese role play script to memorise and practise/reherse;

All these are really driving me crazy. So many things to be done, yet the time is so little...

I'm just going to do my best in all I can do larhh.. I got to independent; I'm relying too much on my friends lately. And as a result, I actually turned stupid. :X

I got to buck up! I hope it's still not too late!

Look at this cute cat!

2008-06-04T09:13:00.003+08:00

Oh man! Just look at it - cute right?!

I so feel like SQUEEZING him/her! hahaha!

NYP Percussion Team Rocks!

2008-06-03T22:02:00.002+08:00

Today, I went for the NYP Percussion Team concert. It was great!! Totally great~

I'm someone who LOVES music, LOVES singing and this and that. I got a dream in my life, is to learn to play a musical instrument, especially PIANO or GUITAR! I find them damn nice.

Okay about the playing of musical instrument's dream - my point is - I LOVE MUSIC!

Nonethelessly, I don't watch concerts. As in those musical kinds, firstly because I can't afford to watch them, the tickets are too expensive.

Secondly because I don't really get to know when such concerts actually were around :x

Okay, I shall not nag so much. To get to the point - today is actually the first time I actually went for a musical concert! It was ULTRA interesting! And fun! Seriously~ I don't mind going one more time! hahahah! Or even ten more times! :p

Good job to NYP percussion team! you guys are great! my friends and I really enjoyed the night! wahahas!

I got to go now, Teng Yong and Alvin are like spamming me to ask me faster end my post - they going in B2F to train. WTF I TALKING? Aiya, don't have to know, they are just some CABALSEA a.k.a Cabal stuffs. LOL. Okays forget about this paragraph.

Thanks all for visiting! I'll blog again some other time :p

Singapore 3 - 7 Uzbekistan

2008-06-03T08:11:00.002+08:00

I watched this match last night live, on channel 5.

It was rather disappointing to see Singapore lose.

At first Singapore and Uzbekistan were actually tied at 2-2 at an early stage. I thought it's going to be a close fight. But the situation turns bad, and obviously bad.

There are a few scenes in the match which reminds me of the video game - Winning Eleven.

One of them, I remembered a mid field guy from Uzbekistan got the ball at around middle of the court - he one person solo and run all the way to attack - FOUR defenders from Singapore tried to chase up to stop him.

From what I see on the TV screen... none of them can catch up! Oh my god! This is totally WINNING ELEVEN! The guy dribbling the ball totally outrun the 4 defenders! What a different in terms of speed.. size too! Almost all the headings are won by Uzbekistan also. Can obviously tell the differences in size just by looking from afar.. =.="

Well anyway, Singapore tried their best, I'm proud of them. At least they got 3 goals! 1 true goal, follow up by 1 penalty kick, then 1 more goal. (:

Here's a review of the game I've gotten from the news press sites:

SINGAPORE — Uzbekistan overwhelmed Singapore for a 7-3 away win in their World Cup qualifier Monday that extended its advantage atop Group 4.

The match was locked 2-2 after 33 minutes before the Uzbeks slotted three goals before the halftime break to take control of the contest. The win put Uzbekistan on a perfect nine points from three games, with Singapore on three.

Saudi Arabia (three points from two games) was to host Lebanon (no points from two games) later Monday in the other group game, but regardless of the result, Uzbekistan would retain group leadership at the halfway mark of the round-robin, with the top two teams to go through to the next stage.

Kuruvchi teammates Timur Kapadze, in the 10th minute, and Victor Karpenko, in the 22nd minute, twice gave Uzbekistan an early lead, but Singapore responded each time with Aleksandar Duric in the 16th minute and Mustafic Fahrudin from the penalty spot in the 31st minute.

Victor Djeparov put Uzbekistan in front for good with his first goal in the 34th minute. Vitaliy Denisov made it 4-2 to the visitors in the 42nd minute before Djeparov recorded his second in the 42nd minute.

Aziz Ibragimov found the net for Uzbekistan's sixth in the 62nd minute. John Wilkinson narrowed the deficit for the host in the 73rd minute before Dynamo Kyiv striker Maxim Shatskikh rounded off the scoring two minutes from the end of regulation time.

What People Search For - Most Popular Keywords

2008-06-01T16:11:00.002+08:00

Millions of searches are conducted each day on popular search engines by people all around the world. What are they looking for? A number of major search engines provide a way to glimpse into the web's query stream to discover the most popular search keywords or topics. These are:

AOL Hot Searches: Top current queries, or see those in the last hour, last day and within particular categories.

Ask IQ: See top searches at Ask.

Dogpile SearchSpy: Choose to see either a filtered or non-filtered sample of top, real-time search terms from this popular meta search service. Sister site MetaCrawler offers a similar MetaCrawler MetaSpy service.

Google Trends: Allows you to tap into Google's database of searches, to determine what's popular. View the volume of queries over time, by city, regions, languages and so on. Compare multiple terms, as well. See our review: Google Trends: Peer Into Google's Database Of Searches.

Google Zeitgeist: What people are searching for at Google and its associated specialty services in a variety of categories. There are versions for various countries, as well.

Lycos 50: Long-standing service showing top searches at Lycos each week.

MSN Search Insider: Top 200 queries on MSN Search (annoyingly in random order), top "movers" in TV, sports and music, and a "duels" feature pitting top queries in a race against each other.

Yahoo Buzz Index: Shows you what's hot and what's not in terms of search topics at Yahoo.

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The above is an article written by Mr Danny Sullivan. I find it rather useful, so decided to share it with you guys. Hope they are useful to you guys in regard of helping you guys in improving your sites' popularity in search results.

Train for NAPFA fitness test!

2008-05-31T20:47:00.003+08:00

Today I went to school for japanese lesson as usual~ and I DID fall asleep as usual -_-"

I think I'm really screwed up in japanese language man.. got 3 essays to write! I don't know how sia..

As for role play, luckily got Wei Kiang's help~ I can plan the script, alot of ideas but I don't know how to translate them to japanese at all.. Wei Kiang, as the japanese god, he have no problem in translating them :D zai!

Stayed back after school to work on the script, then went to jog and do some work out with James, Roger and Wei Kiang.

I managed to hit 6 pull up now! Improved by 1 more lerh~ Hopefully by NAPFA I can hit 10 times! hahas.

Way to improve pull up? The hard way is to LOSE WEIGHT. Jog more, eat just sufficient, no snacks, no tibits, these are the best way to lose weight. Imagine yourself lifting "something" weigh 74KG, you can do 6 times, if you're lifting "something" weigh 69KG, I'm sure you can do more than 6 times!

I manage to hit around 240 for standing board jump~ I wonder how I hit 294cm when I'm in secondary 4. I tried so hard now, always aroud 240cm only..

Shuttle run! 9.4 seconds! yay-ness! Hope to improve even more!

Sit and reach~ 43cm only -___- this one painful.. I'm weakest in this section! Oh man...

Sit up - never try! I do 10 times then tired liao.. hahaha.. because stomach too pain/cramp LOL~

All the above readings are done straight after 2.4km run.. timing is not recorded or noted, but I KEK KIANG sprint like 300m in the last round.. then end up giddy giddy =__="

So tired now!! Tomorrow meeting my brother rongyao jog in the evening~ wahahas.. I DIE also must get GOLD for NAPFA larhh!!! ELSE I CUT BOTAK!!

Survey LOL

2008-05-31T19:03:00.003+08:00

Name 20 people which you can think now.
Don't read the questions until you have named the 20 ppl.

1. Wen Yong
2. Wen Sheng
3. James
4. Roger
5. Teng Yong
6. Ruina
7. Jing Hong
8. Pei Han
9. Alan
10. Gina
11. Jong Ling
12. Joseph
13. Feng Ling
14. Ophira
15. Hui Fang
16. Alvin Han
17. Wei Xiong
18. Rong Yao
19. Wei Kiang
20. Yu Shan

Q1. How did you meet no.14?
ANS: Maple story LOL

Q2.What will you do if you never met no.1?
ANS: He's my blood brother LOL.

Q3.What if 9 & 20 are dated?
ANS: LOL! impossible larhh~ -_-"

Q4.What if 6 & 17 are dated?
ANS: POSSIBLE! They playing Cabal now in the same guild ;P

Q5.Describe no.3
ANS: This QIQI is a good friend, treat people very good. hahaa.

Q6.Is no.8 attractive?
ANS: Yeah lor, but too bad he's attached, else i GAY him LOL jkjk :X

Q7.Describe 7
ANS: Very good at talking, very daring and very nice to talk to de :p

Q8.Do you know any of the no.12's family member?
ANS: I only know he got a brother who's always whacked by him LOL

Q9.What would you do if 18 confesses that he/she likes you?
ANS: LOL we know each other for more than 10 years liao sia, my best buddy wor. I DONT MIND GAY HIM LOL. Choi -_- later his gf see LOL

Q10.What language does 15 speaks?
ANS: Fangbox squarepants language

Q11.HOW OLD IS 16?
ANS: tomorrow his birthday sia, then he will be 20 years old liao~

Q12.Who is 2's favourite band/singer?
ANS: Click on [WenSheng]'s link on the right, go to his blog and ask him LOL

Q13.Would you ever date 4?
ANS: LOL he's the gay clan guildmaster! My leader - LAO GAY~ mai siao siao ;p

Q14.Would you date 1?
ANS: would you date your brother -_-

Q15.Is 19 single?
ANS: How would I know sia :X

Q16.What is 10th's last name?
ANS: Soon~

Q17.Would you ever be in a relationship with 11?
ANS: OMG LOL. well, impossible! xD

Q18.School of 3?
ans: Nanyang Polytechnic

Q19.Where does 16 lives?
ANS: Tampines

Q20.Have you ever seen 2 naked?
ANS: LOL. SIAO~

5 people to do this quiz (must find people with blog)
1. James
2. Alvin Han
3. Feng Ling
4. Roger
5. Ruina

I enjoy sarbotage. But again, you can don't do. LOL. My brother larh, ask me do this kind of stupid survey then make me the next to do it. LOLLL~

Iceland level 6.1 earthquake [yet another natural disaster]

2008-05-30T21:11:00.003+08:00

A strong earthquake measuring 6.1 has hit southern Iceland, 50km (30 miles) from the capital, Reykjavik.

In the town of Selfoss, near the epicentre, buildings were damaged and up to 20 people needed treatment for minor injuries, reports say.

Residents in the capital felt buildings shake and aftershocks were felt in the south-west of the country.

The US Geological Survey said the earthquake struck at 1546 GMT at a shallow 6.2 miles (10 km).

Pall Einarsson, Professor of Geophysics at the Institute of Earth Sciences in Iceland, told the BBC that the earthquake happened in an area popular with tourists:

"It was close to the town of Selfoss and there is apparently, according to the preliminary news, considerable damage in that town," he said.

"Iceland is sitting on a plate boundary where the North America and Eurasian plates are drifting apart. So it's a country of volcanoes and earthquakes and so earthquakes are common but large earthquakes are relatively rare," he added.

People 'terrified'

"It was quite a lot of shaking... It was quite a big one," Ivar Ingimarsson, a footballer who plays for Britain's Reading club but who is now in Reykjavik, told the BBC.

Danny Austin, a Briton who has been living in the Icelandic capital for a year, told the BBC the earthquake lasted about eight seconds:

"It was fairly noisy. It sounded like thunder coming from the ground. The whole house was shaking, although we haven't had much damage here," he said.

Audbjorg Olafsdottir, an economist in Reykjavik, told Reuters news agency that "the glass in the windows shook and everybody was just really scared".

"In Selfoss, where it happened, I heard everything is broken and people are standing outside in the street and everybody is terrified," she added.

Iceland's national broadcaster RUV radio reported that the road between Reykjavik and Selfoss had been closed due to damage.

Authorities have advised residents in the area to leave their homes because of the possibility of aftershocks.

Iceland, which has a population of about 300,000, is a geologically unstable volcanic island in the north Atlantic.

A spokesman for Iceland's Institute of Earth Sciences said the country had been expecting further quakes after a series of tremors in the same area in 2000.

The girl who felt ignored

2008-05-29T20:59:00.001+08:00

I saw this story in the internet, find it rather nice, so decided to share it with you all. It's about a girl who felt that she is being ignored by her boyfriend.

Happy reading!

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I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin.
I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club, I found out that I fell in love with him.
Before the trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him.
And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways.
I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there was so many other girls.
To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl...
"Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked.
"I can't"
"Why? You need to study at home?" I felt disappointment grabbing me.
"No... I am going to meet a friend..."
He was always like that.
He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend.
The word 'love' only came out of my mouth.
Since I knew him, I had never heard I'm say 'I love you' before.
To us, there weren't any anniversaries at all.
He didn't say anything from the first day and it continued till 1O0 days...2O0 days...
Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don't know why...
Then one day...
Me: Um, Jin, I...
Jin: What...don't drag, just say...
Me: I love you.
Jin: ...........you.....um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my 'three words' and handed me the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away.
The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one.
There were many....
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.
When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call.
But... lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark... he still didn't call.
It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep.
He told me to come out of the house.
Still. I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin...
Jin: Here...take this...
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What's this?
Jin: I didn't give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now.
I'm going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday.
He turned around and walked away like nothing had happened.
Then I shouted...
"Wait..."
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me...
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung onto him.
But he just said simple cold words and left.
"I don't want to say...that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else."
That was what he said. Then ran off...
My legs felt numb...and I collapsed to the ground. He didn't want to say it easily...
How could he...
I felt that...
Maybe he is not the right guy for me...
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying.
He didn't call me, although I was waiting.
He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house.
That's how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday
After a month, I got myself together and went to school.
But what made the pain resurface was that.... I saw him on a street...with another girl...
He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...as he touched the doll...
I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell...
Why did he gave these to me...
Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls...
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.
Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.
He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house.
I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop.
I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that....its going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn't help hating him, acting like nothing had happened and joking around.
Soon, he held out the doll as usual...
Me: I don't need it.
Jin: What....why...
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don't need this doll, I don't need it anymore!! I don't want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes were very shaky.
"I'm sorry" He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll...
"You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!"
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then...
Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
"Jin! Move! Move away!" I shouted...
But he didn't hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
"Jin, move!"
HONK~!!!
"Boom!" That sound, so terrifying.
That's how he went away from me.
That's how he went away without evening opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him...
And after spending two months like a crazy person...
I took out the dolls.
Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out.
I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days... when we were in love...
"One...two... three..."
That was how... I started to count the dolls...
"Four hundred and eighty four... four hundred and eighty five..."
It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms.
I hugged it tightly, then suddenly...
"I love you~, I love you~"
I dropped the dolls, shocked.
"I....lo..ve...you??"
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
"I love you~ I love you~"
It can't be!
I pressed all the dolls' stomach as it piled on the side.
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
"I love you~"
Those words came out non-stop.
I...love you...
Why didn't I realize that.....
That his heart was always by my side, protecting me.
Why didn't I realize that he love me this much...
I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it's stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road.
It had his blood stain on it.
The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much...
"Jo...Do you know what today is? We've been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn't say I love you.... Um... since I was too shy... If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that i love you... everyday... till I die... Jo... I love you..."
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now?
He can't be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute...
For that... and for that reason... to me... it became courage... to live a beautiful life...

One liners - Hidden meaning

2008-05-28T02:20:00.002+08:00

In today's society, in the working world - there are many one liners with hidden meanings. Let's take a look at some of them:

1."We will do it" means "You will do it"

2."You have done a great job" means "More work to be given to you"

3."We are working on it" means "We have not yet started working on it"

4."Tomorrow first thing in the morning" means "Its not getting done - At least not tomorrow!"

5."After discussion we will decide - I am very open to views" means "I have already decided, I will tell you what to do"

6."There was a slight miscommunication" means "We had actually lied"

7."Lets call a meeting and discuss" means "I have no time now, will talk later"

8."We can always do it" means "We actually cannot do the thing on time"

9."We are on the right track but there needs to be a slight extension of the deadline" means "The project is screwed up, we cannot deliver on time."

10."We had slight differences of opinion means "We had actually fought"

11."Make a list of the work that you do and let's see how I can help you" means "Anyway you have to find a way out no help from me"

12."You should have told me earlier" means "Well even if you told me earlier that would have made hardly any difference!"

13."We need to find out the real reason" means "Well I will tell you where your fault is"

14."Well Family is important; your leave is always granted. Just ensure that the work is not affected," means, "Well you know..."

15."We are a team," means, "I am not the only one to be blamed"

16."That's actually a good question" means "I do not know anything about it"

17."All the Best" means "You are in trouble"

Fun basketball session

2008-05-27T00:44:00.003+08:00

Okay, first thing first, I gonna complain - I'm so tired!!

Yesterday been chatting on MSN until around 3am, then when I was about to sleep, I was too tempted to log in CabalSEA and try Ruina Station. So, I slept at like 4.30am.

And I auto wake up at around 6.30am. I can't manage to fall back asleep then, and I have to reach school at 9am. Torture!

All the lessons today I've been sleeping 80% of the time. My lecturers must be pissed off by me ;/

Anyway, a surprising basketball session was organised by teng yong, thus I agreed to go.

I'm seriously lack of sleep and I still go play sports! Imagine how tired I am now T_T

Okay larh, enough complaining :X

Basically we went to play basketball at woodlands, got myself, teng yong, joseph, alvin, alan, zi chun, jing hong, ruina, and mahes. Overall the whole basketball session was quite fun, i don't mind doing it every week.

And guess what. My shoulder blade is damn suan/exhausted - strengthless. Done too much pumping already~

The only bad thing about today is the humilation. I hate to lose. Play play for fun with friends is alright, but I'm playing seriously with some strangers just now and I made quite a number of stupid moves.

And worst of all, there court did not on the most important light and due to my specs being too loose, I play basketball without putting on my specs. Thus can't even receive passes from my friends. Damn weak!

Well, I'm very tired now and I don't really know what I am typing. Cheerios~

Remember that I love you [true story]

2008-05-25T20:51:00.003+08:00

This story happens after the earthquake at si chuan - during the rescuing time. It touched me.

When the rescuers found her, she was already dead. She was kneeling, her body bent forwards, her two hands were on the ground - propping up her body; it was almost like she was praying, except her body was bent out of shape.

Just as the rescue team was about to leave, someone suddenly yelled "Come back!" They returned to her corpse, someone reached out a hand under her body. They rummaged for a while, and then shouted. "There's someone there. A child! It's still alive!"

Carefully, they cleared the rubble around her, and retrieved the child beneath her body. He was wrapped in a red blanket, covered with yellow flowers, only 3, 4 months of age. He was completely unhurt, protected under his mother's body. And when they took him out, he was slumbering peacefully.

A doctor unraveled the blanket to examine the child, and found a mobile phone. He glanced at it absent-mindedly, noticing the screen bore a short message. Tears ran down his cheeks as he read.

"My dear child, if you survive, always remember that I love you."

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The above is a true story [link]

Please just take a moment out of your - no doubt, busy - lives to pray and feel for those who've died, lost loved ones, and still waiting for news.

Gym workout

2008-05-24T23:26:00.002+08:00

Today's japanese class is tough as usual~ Struggling sia.. next wednesday results out, I think got 60% I might fail this paper. If I fail it, I might request to drop out.

Anyway, meet up with Wei Kiang, James, Roger and Jiew Meng and we actually wanted to go for a jog.

Guess what?

The sun is so strong that we feel the heat upon walking out at non shelter area! We went to the fitness corner behind block L, wanting to work out there. But the sun show no mercy! Sure will get heatstroke if we workout there.

Wei Kiang wear glove and do pull up also can feel the heat of the pull up bar! Oh my god! Lucky I never go touch the bar :X

I tried standing board jump! Around 260+ I think.. quite upset.. I used to jump 290~300+ (mattress only got 300cm) during my secondary school life time.. So demoralising!

In the end, we went to the gym beside Yio Chu Kang MRT station.

One thing I die die must complain - cause I forget to bring towel, then need to buy @ $1 marh, this one is normal, it's not what I want to complain. What I want to complain is - THE SMELL OF THE TOWEL. DAMN GROSS. YUCKS. Jiew Meng also cannot tahan it. Oh my god....

James Weikiang and Roger lucky sia, they got bring towel. Else they gonna taste what is called "YUCKING SMELL" also. lols :x

So we do our workout there.. for two and a half hours - damn tiring! Whole body exhausted.

Then we went to eat at the hawker centre. The food there is quite not bad, I like eating at hawker centre - the price is good :P

So tired now. Playing cabal~ and I still cannot find the items I want~ Sad. hahas.

Well that's all, cheerios!

I need to be more daring, and brave!

Goddamn XTrap

2008-05-24T18:51:00.002+08:00

I damn hate XTrap!

If you don't know what is Xtrap - it's a guarding program which comes together with certain MMORPG (Massive Multiplayer Online Role Playing Game) games.

Some examples of games which adopt xtrap are Gunz Online, CabalSEA and such. Of Course, there are other guarding program like Gameguard, which is adopt by MapleSEA.

Well anyway, my purpose is - I'm so damn pissed off by that goddamn xtrap! I login to CabalSEA, tried my best to get into Channel 1 trade channel and open my shop at a hot spot.

Then later, I wanted to play DotA. So I open the program - Warcraft 3 Frozen Throne.

AND IT AUTO RESTART MY COMPUTER!!

Well and that's not the end YET!

When my computer finally restarts finish, the moment I click something or tried to open any folders or files, IT AUTO RESTART MY COMPUTER AGAIN!

At first I thought it was kinda screwed up so restarts my computer for 2 times. I waited for it to restart finish and tried to manually restart it so that it will recover to normal mode..

The moment I click on the START button on the bottom left corner of my screen, IT AUTO RESTART MY COMPUTER AGAIN!!!

I'm so pissed off! It goes on a few more times - in total, my computer has been AUTO RESTART BY XTRAP FOR 6 TIMES IN A ROW!!!!

Totally pissed off by it. How did I stop it from auto restarting??

I force shutdown my computer by pressing and holding down the POWER ON button on my CPU!! =.=

I don't think there's any other way though!

2008-05-23T22:44:00.002+08:00

I one week never see her liao! Oh my god!

Well anyway, never mind~ (:

I'm super tired! Been busy everyday, hahas. Tomorrow saturday also got japanese class~ busy busy~

Don't know what to update sia. Oh yeah, I saw evil princess at yck mrt today. Unless I see wrongly larh, she's like wearing formal today and was there. lols xD

I shall find time to play basketball in school some day (: hahas.

Okay larh, gonna go play Cabal for awhile man~ hahaa

cheerios!!

Great lesson in life!

2008-05-22T21:37:00.002+08:00

I felt myself growing! Not physically though, more like mentally! :D

In the past, I always let the evil side of me took control of my sense, especially when I'm very angry or very worked up. So hard to control.

And not only that, when I'm nervous, I couldn't hide it - my body language will betray me, and even if it doesn't, I can't communicate well and this and that. I know it myself.

Furthermore, I am super impatient. Very very impatient! ):

But now, I felt myself really growed up and is getting more and more patient! And most importantly, I started to get to be able to control feelings!

Anyway, we had our communication skills presentation yesterday! I was SOOOO nervous! I hate presentation all along, because I'm so easily nervous and couldn't speak well!

So what if I get A2 in my O`levels english?

Being able to write doesn't mean being able to speak! I speak mandarin/chinese in most time of my life! Unless neccessary and needed, or else I won't speak in english! ;/

Okay, back to topic. Communication skills! I must mention this - this semester is so far, the one and only time where I'm actually LOOKING FORWARD to every communication skills classes!

Mr Lim is a very nice, friendly, and easy going person. Being in his class has not much stress, instead, it's sooooo interesting that it become an enjoyment! :D

Today I introduce some of my friends to him, it turns out quite well and they have good impression of him also. More like they're being teach by some... you know, those kind of lecturers :X and Mr Lim is EXACTLY opposite of them! Envy right?! :p

There is so much more to touch up for our JavaJive program! Hope we can make it! I want to win man!!

I'm looking forward to winning a WII console! Or even an iTouch! hahahah!

Well actually, win WII or iTouch don't really matters, what matters is the experience and the opportunity. Shall warp up this JavaJive talk next time when the competition ends! :p

Oh yeah, take a look at this link -- http://www.sun-promo.com/javajive/teams.html --

Did you spot me?! :D

Today is thursday! But I missed it! - thursday is not a thursday without seeing my idol around.

Oh man~ that's damn upsetting.

I actually had a mood swing and lost my mood this afternoon for not being able to see her! D:

Well anyway, she's gonna leave my life soon. ):

I just realise my post is rather long today. haha. I was just typing out anything which comes to my mind, so it's a bit disorganised.

But anyway! It doesn't matter right? I split them into chunks and chunks, grouping related thoughts together.

So just skip one chunk if it doesn't interest you~ :p

and feel free to so called "rearrange" the contents yourself as you read them! Because they're obviously not in sequence xD

Had our japanese test yesterday too~ The paper is super difficult! The standard is again, so much higher than OE1. I just hope I can pass it

Frankly speaking, I only read up the vocabs and structures of the tested chapters, one time each.. Got not much time to study and still got to prepare for communication skills presentation just one day before the japanese test!

As for the oral expression, I think maybe still can pass.

Thanks to communication skills presentation on that day's morning, I wasn't too nervous during the oral test.

Also thanks to Wei Kiang, the japanese god, and Matthias, another japanese sibeh zai guy, for teaching me and giving me tips for the oral~ billion thanks! :D

Suddenly remember that I also want to thanks James for being a very good team mate and very understanding friend during the time we're doing communication skills presentation slides preparation~

I was quite busy due to javajive and japanese test to prepare for.. James did most of the information research before we do the slides together - that save up alot of time!

Seriously, I think we're able to did a good job, most of the credits goes to James~ :D

Mr Lim commented that James and I had very good teamwork and he enjoyed our presentation yesterday~ damn happy! :DD

At least our effort didn't go to drain~ and I didn't give up my sleep for nothing! I did the cards and prepare the speech, plus some practise, all in one night that I only slept for like.. 1 and a half hour before I "wake up" and prepare to go to school.. LOL!

Anyway, can't be confirmed yet since the grades and stuffs is not out yet~

Last but not least, a lesson learnt - good grades doesn't mean anything. Even if all distinction also no use. Like what my friend had said, I shall quote it here:

".... and implies that a high GPA is not borne of hard work but via underhanded means of acquiring information ...."

Still got more, but I'll just put that line out. I don't want to talk much about it, just a short summary:

some high GPA guy use a very underhand method to get his GPA high~ he pay lecturers to do school work for him~ he steal his friend's work and claim it to be his and submit it~ he hug (in chinese, called BA4 ZHAN4) lecturers during lab~ he paste a whole chunks of relevant+irrelevant contents in his reports and stuffs just to earn QUANTITY marks~ he lick lecturers' boots~ and many more!!

I shall stop advertising more of it :p

This post is super long larh! I will be stopping here. So tired! Been typing for like.. half an hour? Or even more! I'm like talking to the browser/blogger! :p

Let's see if got people tag or what. :X

I wonder who actually read everything. hahaha!